A wedding and a Funeral

I have only been to Houston 2 times in my life and it was for my Uncle Ron's wedding 9 yrs ago and now for his Memorial Service last week. It has been a tormenting journey the last 10 days. Not only because we lost my Uncle, my mom's brother but we lost a man who was so amazing, so intelligent, selfless, fun and amazing. I stood in shock when my mom told me about my uncle passing away in his home, legs getting numb gasping for air at the same time looking at my mom and seeing the pain in her eyes, knowing how broken her heart was. She and Ron had a bond as siblings you just don't see anymore. Over the last 6 yrs Ron has spent alot of time with us in AZ especially in November when we all went to Nascar.

My mom, step-father Greg, my hubby and my brother Kevin all rushed to Texas last week to work through this and support each other in this time of loss. I know myself I wanted to go and see him and know this isn't happening, in the beginning there was denial. It was devastating to us to go into his home, see his belongings and get to know more about a man who we thought we already knew and became regretful of the years we missed. Boxing up personal items, memoirs and even things that didn't need to be boxed up because we didn't want to be separated by just that little piece that would remind us of who he was.

I can't express to you how heart broken I was when I realized "hey this is real", he's gone!
My heart broke over and over as I witnessed the sadness in my moms eyes, seeing my family in so much pain. Knowing I can't help my mom and make it better. Knowing the guys were heartbroken over losing a fabulous member of our family, my daughter not understanding but knowing he's gone and she will never see him again. All of us so sad, it's indescribable. I thank my brother Kevin for rushing to my mom's side to be a support, I thank my dad Greg for just putting up with everything and being the backbone of the crew and I thank my husband most of all for supporting me through this time of sadness, knowing he's hurting too.